I’m in Pain.
Today I’m in pain.
Sometimes it’s a sharp shooting pain, other times it’s a building sweat-inducing pain, most of the time it’s a dull in the background pain.
People can’t see my pain, it’s inside. Most of the time it’s fine but some days like today it feels all consuming. I feel angry and irritable. I feel tired and lethargic, bogged down by the constant need to control the pain.
On days like today I want to be ALONE, I don’t want to drag people down with my misery and irritability. It’s not fair on them, but I’m a mum and a wife and most of the time being ALONE isn’t an option.
I hate talking when I’m in pain, it feels like too much effort, it feels like to talk is to take my focus off controlling the pain allowing it to take over me. Sometimes I disappear into a darkened room and sleep it off, sleeping helps. I’m lucky that my family have adopted a sixth illness sense and seem to instinctively know when all is not well, they give me a wide berth and I’m very grateful for it.
I’m not writing this post for sympathy, sometimes you need to use your blog to vent – you know how it is.
Tomorrow will be better, tomorrow I’ll write about Hadrian’s Walk and the fantastic effort of people that have experienced REAL PAIN. Pain I dare not even imagine.
My pain is only a sensation, it will pass.
Hope you feel better soon Erica xxx
Thanks Laura, sometimes you just need to have a moan
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Moan away, groan a bit and I hope a bit of R&R under the duvet helps.
Had a lie in this morning and feel marginally better.
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You know where we are if you need us, hope you feel better soon Dude xx
Can’t imagine it hon. Hope you’re feeling better now. Huowge hugs. x